Saturday, 17 April 2010 @ 09:31

Before being (officially) a year 2, I shall blog how my poly life has been as a year 1. Shall be completely honest and open so that next time I can read and laugh about it. Jyeahz.

I remember being so excited that poly was finally starting. Going through the enrollment process, getting my photo taken and having buy my very first laptop! I remember walking with Shafarie through all the camp booths, deciding which one to choose. Initially I wanted to go to SPSU's camp (because can meet different people from different courses!), but in the end their DMC slots were full wtf. So we decided to sign up at the CASS camp's booth instead.

Bu thank God that happened! Met the awesome bomb Sluts (Rad, Beatrice, Farhan, Asaph, Daryl!!) and made many new friends. I think camps are very good, helps get you some friends so you won't be a loner on FOP. After afew days, we got to know our class and found out that I was in DMC 05 along with Ben, Nic, Rad. I remember things were quite awkward during FOP. There were so many new faces around and I didn't have the guts to approach anyone except those 3 who went to CASS camp. :S

The next day was flag day and I managed to talk to some of my classmates during our breakfast in Macs. Till this day I can remember Ben saying "this Fiona is also another bitch!!!!" and Lina looking at me and saying, "then I guess I better not step on your tail then." Lina you are fucking scary please!!!!! The way you looked at me! I thought you totally won't be my friend. HAHA.'

In the end I paired up with Lina and Kai En and we were standing outside Shaw centre asking people to donate. Halfway through we all decided to give up and Verena, Lina, Esme and I decided to catch 17 again at Cineleisure. I think I collected less than $30, feel damn bad -_- We then headed back to school for money collection, and I think things got a bit awkward in the MRT *ahem* Shall move on...

During semester 1, I HATED my poly life. I thought my classmates sucked because they were all so clique-y and everyone were losers who went home directly after school. -_- I would go to NP everyday to find Keefe, Soon Eng and Hui Min. In a way, I felt miserable because everyone seem to hit off so well with their new poly classmates. I seemed to be the only one struggling to make new friends. Sigh. This continued on till our class chalet during our sem break! Which was probably the best thing that happened. I felt that we really bonded, sharing some of our dark secrets with each other.

The other thing which I'm really proud of is becoming a model for my school events and magazines. That is something I wouldn't have dream of. I'm not the school belle, in fact I'm the opposite - the school's belle ugly friend. Having this opportunity in SP really boost up my confidence. But I still look like a nerd in school, can't be bothered dressing up really. No time, and no money. :( Since things have calmed down in the family, I hope things can start picking up again. Now to Sem 2.

Semester 2 started off great, but it had its ups and downs.

I became closer with Ben and Nic, who are 2 awesome guys! Unfortunately, my GEMS class got screwed up. I was suppose to be with Dhea at T17 level 4 class, I ended up panicking and choosing the level 5 class instead. And I blogged "I really hope the quote "everything happens for a reason" is true, if not I can cry like mad." Well to a certain extent, it did came true. I met a "hot guy" in my GEMS for like the first time in my poly life. I remember being so excited, telling Lina "Omg that's him! I think he's name is Samuel Kok!" So during one day when I pointed her to him, she told me his actual name was Sean. HAHAHA funny shit. How could the names be so far apart? We went out, and I really did like him... but we just didn't get together in the end.

Since I'm along the same topic. I will mention that I've also made up with Aloysius this year. Aloysius was a fucker who broke my heart and I forgive him for what he did but I won't forget. Duh. He helped me alot with the DVPA projects really. We re-did our script and filming like thousand of times before settling on a final piece. I remember DVPA was one fucked up module _|_ Actually all my modules were pretty shitty. I was pretty sure my GPA would be like 2.3. I could totally picture not going to university and being a waitress all of my life earning less than 2k a month. Yes, that dramatic.

There was the period of time I think I had depression. I felt that my life was the most fucked up and shittiest ever. I felt like I was losing everything I once had. Which I did. I was crying every other day, coming to school with puffy eyes. I guess I'm better now that everything is over, and things are somewhat settled. Time does heal everything, but how long it'll take nobody knows.

I shall come to an arrupt ending because school is starting tomorrow, and I really should be sleeping. But one thing's for sure, Year 2 will be different. I swear on that.